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jacked01What a grueling Day, The old company that supplied medical equipment for Helen still had not picked up the bed, well they did today. at the same time that the new Hospice people brought their equipment in.
I had to move Helen around quite a few times causing her great pain, now just as we get her settled into her new bed the new nurse shows up. with out the medical supplies that she needed so I unpack all the supplies that I had already packed for Medstar.
Jihad her do the full work up on Helen. changing bandages on her bedsores, changing her needle in her medication port and also checking the tubing on the bags that are attached to her kidneys.
There are a shit load of new meds that I have to learn and a whole new schedule that I have to adhere to, yes we don't have to do dialysis anymore but now there is just a whole new set of problems.
I was pointed to another LJ where someone was claiming to have cancer but turns out they didn't, they were just doing it to get attention, it turns out I know this person, I just don't know how to act or what to say. I have been going through this with Helen for eight months now and I know what she has to go through, I know the pain she is in and all the problems that come with this sickness, and I cannot fathom how someone could fake an illness like this just to get attention.
I mean how fucking sad is your life when you need to suck in peoples emotional energy to make yourself feel better about yourself. When I think of how much of myself I have put into caring for Helen, the thought of this person doing this brings me to Violence.
As I said I know this person I will never mention it to him, but I will always keep it in the back of my mind when dealing with him, know what a weak and pathetic excuse of a human being he really must be.
Everything in my personality SCREAMS to confront you and publicly embarrass you to the community we both are a part of, but I will keep it under my hat and not even deal with you.
I had to move Helen around quite a few times causing her great pain, now just as we get her settled into her new bed the new nurse shows up. with out the medical supplies that she needed so I unpack all the supplies that I had already packed for Medstar.
Jihad her do the full work up on Helen. changing bandages on her bedsores, changing her needle in her medication port and also checking the tubing on the bags that are attached to her kidneys.
There are a shit load of new meds that I have to learn and a whole new schedule that I have to adhere to, yes we don't have to do dialysis anymore but now there is just a whole new set of problems.
I was pointed to another LJ where someone was claiming to have cancer but turns out they didn't, they were just doing it to get attention, it turns out I know this person, I just don't know how to act or what to say. I have been going through this with Helen for eight months now and I know what she has to go through, I know the pain she is in and all the problems that come with this sickness, and I cannot fathom how someone could fake an illness like this just to get attention.
I mean how fucking sad is your life when you need to suck in peoples emotional energy to make yourself feel better about yourself. When I think of how much of myself I have put into caring for Helen, the thought of this person doing this brings me to Violence.
As I said I know this person I will never mention it to him, but I will always keep it in the back of my mind when dealing with him, know what a weak and pathetic excuse of a human being he really must be.
Everything in my personality SCREAMS to confront you and publicly embarrass you to the community we both are a part of, but I will keep it under my hat and not even deal with you.
