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Apr. 24th, 2003 08:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jacked01I'm amazed we got to sleep in till 7:30, Bill and I are still tired but it felt good, Today we ask Helen if she wants to go to in hospice care, for the past day or so she is of the thought that Bill and I are trying to kill her.
Helen is Bi polar as well as having all her physical problem she also has to deal with that, well since she has returned from the hospital she is unable to take the really big pill of valproic acid.
that coupled with her condition has really put her schew on reality in a strange place. Bill over reacted as always, he personalizes it, he got mad pretty much told me "Screw it" lets put her in the nursing home if that's what she wants.
She would die horribly in a place like that so we contacted the Hospice chaplain to come in and talk with her, we found out that hospice has in house care, she can use that and we both feel, Bill and I, that would be a hell of a lot better then the care she would get at a nursing home.
Now I'm still of the notion that she should stay here but if she still feels we are trying to kill her today and she responds that she is afraid of that then Bill will contact Hospice and set up the in care.
The chaplain was suppose to be here yesterday but didn't make it, if she tells the chaplain that we are trying to kill her and that she wants out, then she will get that. I see it as a side effect of being without her medication, I know this, But bill has personalize it and is upset.
We have taken eight months of our lives and given them to her for her care, so she would not die alone, I'm committed to finishing this, more so then Bill. We both are very tired and coming this close to the end I think that the easy way out is something Bill finds attractive.
I on the other hand signed on for the long haul and would like to see this through to the end, it will not be long now.
Helen is Bi polar as well as having all her physical problem she also has to deal with that, well since she has returned from the hospital she is unable to take the really big pill of valproic acid.
that coupled with her condition has really put her schew on reality in a strange place. Bill over reacted as always, he personalizes it, he got mad pretty much told me "Screw it" lets put her in the nursing home if that's what she wants.
She would die horribly in a place like that so we contacted the Hospice chaplain to come in and talk with her, we found out that hospice has in house care, she can use that and we both feel, Bill and I, that would be a hell of a lot better then the care she would get at a nursing home.
Now I'm still of the notion that she should stay here but if she still feels we are trying to kill her today and she responds that she is afraid of that then Bill will contact Hospice and set up the in care.
The chaplain was suppose to be here yesterday but didn't make it, if she tells the chaplain that we are trying to kill her and that she wants out, then she will get that. I see it as a side effect of being without her medication, I know this, But bill has personalize it and is upset.
We have taken eight months of our lives and given them to her for her care, so she would not die alone, I'm committed to finishing this, more so then Bill. We both are very tired and coming this close to the end I think that the easy way out is something Bill finds attractive.
I on the other hand signed on for the long haul and would like to see this through to the end, it will not be long now.
