jacked01

I'm being drained this week, Doing things for people and circling in a holding pattern in my life and household is starting to wear thin on my sensibilities, and patience. I know I keep ranting on this subject but my god when the hell am I going to claim my life back its been going on three years now and i'm very tired of it. When I stop to think of how indepentant I was and to look at myself now, my self confidence slowing dripping off of me like a small hole in a bucket.

To be resolved and claim that which is mine would be destructive to those that I care about so I'm in a dilemma that is nothing more then a spiral of self pity which I loathe and abhor when I see it in others so I guess I take it a bit harder on my self due to That.